shallow thoughts with crystal

okay, I tried this story out a couple of times and it didn't come off funny. But it is still really funny to me, so i am telling it anyway. My bike is awesome. I got it when I was ten. It's bubble gum pink and has purple lettering on it "Schwinn" and "Caliente". It's super girly, it's a track bike and it has the girl-style bar that dips for a skirt. I am driving to the gym a couple of days ago and I see a squat lookin' dude riding my bike! It wasn't really my bike, after I was done in the gym I went home and checked. It was just ridiculous looking. He was riding really slowely so I had a chance to even read that it was the same bike.

I got my hair butchered a couple of days ago. Well the hairdresser would say that she cut it. But ... it was attacked. It's uneven over my ears and messy over my forehead. It just looks bad all around and it's too long towards the top of my head so it sticks out and makes my head look square. That is the last time I let someone use a straight razor on my hair. And she told me that I looked like I had moved to the states, that I don't have typical "american" features. Whatever! Like there is such a thing. Almost everyone in america isn't native american. I didn't know what to say to that so I just said "i'm like all german."

I had a follow up interview from that one last thursday. I didn't think the thursday one went that well but I guess it was okay because I got a call back. The second interview went well I thought so maybe I'll be flying out there some time soon. It would be crazy. As much as I want a real job there is just sooooo much change involved and it's kinda freaking me out. I know everything winds up working out but it's just pretty scary to look at it all at once. If I get and take this job I would be moving to California. I don't know how my classmates seem to do all of this without any worries. Maybe they are all just more grown up than i am.

I am not sure what kind of job I want to have. This one that I just interviewed for isn't doing design or analysis it's more business-y. I hadn't really thought of taking a job like that. I got a business minor so that I could understand what's going on around me but not really use it for anything. I just don't know what to do. I don't know if I should keep trying to get the kind of job that imagined having or take the job I can get. Maybe I am thinking too far ahead. Let's just wait and see what comes of this and keep applying to other jobs.

I still don't know what to think about monday night. Mary called me in to work. She said that she had a job that she needed someone special for. So I thought it must be something that takes more than any idiot, so maybe it'll be okay to do. Then she tells me it's grunt work in the backroom. So then I start thinking that she is manipulating me. She tells me she needs someone who is not an idiot to flatter me then I accept before knowing it's grunt work. But then when I look back at the conversation maybe special didn't mean smart but someone who wouldn't complain about grunt work. So maybe she wasn't trying to flatter me but said that I am good for grunt work. I can't get a real job early enough.