Moved out

I have officially moved out of my apartment. I am now totally living at home. I really need to find a job man! I got an e-mail monday that may lead to a phone interview... we'll see. I am not going to say anything about it cause it probably won't happen.

I am totally miffed. There was a big lan party last weekend and i wasn't invited. Nobody told me about it until my boyfriend said, the day of, "oh yeah, i think the guys are having the lan party tonight." I mean what the hell guys. I told you i would want to come to play tfc and stuff. Whatever, i am going to have a totally kick ass party and not invite any of you. Probably not really, but shame on you.

Well i should get some beauty sleep cause I have been feelin' ugly lately.

i feel trashed

How many people would search through the trash at work for a $19 check? Do you think a person who would do that deserves the higher rate for a raise? I do. At least I would like a little respect like maybe they could schedule me the right way. I want a real job.

I moved some more things out of my apartment. I still have some stuff there that I didn't have room for in the bags and boxes I took. And all of the cleaning supplies are there because I still have to clean the place.

I finished that last book and I really dind't like the end. Next up is war of the worlds. I didn't like the end of the movie so I am pretty sure that I won't like the end of the book but given the period in which it was written I think I can give some allowences.

I am waiting to hear more about job I interviewed for on tuesday. I felt really confident after the call but who knows.

Update

It has been a while since I posted. I have been very actively working on my job search. I updated my monster account on tuesday last week, and I recieved a call on thursday about a job in Springfield, VA. I hadn't applied to the job, someone saw my resume and thought it might be a match. It is with Raytheon. I get really nervous when I am talking to people directly but the guy I am speaking with seems really friendly.

I started reading a book called Normal People. It goes back and forth in time to tell stories about a family of a slightly retarded woman. It centers around her sister, mom and niece. I am about half way through. I don't like how some of it is told ... I don't feel like real people would think the way they do. But maybe people really do. I mean, everyone is different so maybe some people would be that way.

I had my performance review at work on sunday. My manager had several nice things to say and only one thing to work on, but I still only got the middle raise. I was one point away from getting the high raise. I always seem to be one point away from excellent. In elementry school they told my mom that my IQ was one point away from being in the special kids group (i was in tag when we lived in Iowa) and they didn't let me take the high math class until i was in fifth grade. Then when i went into sixth they dropped me down again only to let me take pre algebra in seventh. My grades have always been good enough but I was never the smart kid in class.

At work I had to put up a lot of signs for the new sale that started yesterday and i was thinking the whole time, "how many times have I done this? I don't want to do it ever again. I want a real job." They have been hiring all kinds of new people around the store. One of the new cashiers is doing really well. She should, she's in her late thirties and has been cashiering as her career since high school I think. It may work for her, but there is no way I want to do that.

Besides the work stuff that is kinda getting me down I have been doing alright. I have been going out to movies and dinner a lot. I had dinner at Justin's last night and there was a lot of food. I have been helping him clean his room. It's a dusty, sticky grody job but I really think it's worth while. As much as he acts like he doesn't care that his room is dirty, I think he likes the progress. It's really funny to see how much clothes he has. He has like three times as much clothes as i have but he never wears most of it and he doesn't want to get rid of it either. I have been feeling guilty for hanging onto a couple shirts that are old or don't fit but not any more!

stickers and mtv

Thank you Nikki for giving me something to talk about. When i was in Michigan Nikki, Justin and I went to Krogers. They had price stickers on everything in the store ... you know like before the days of computers and scanning devices. She tells me that everything has to be re-stickered when it goes on sale and then changed again after. So they are employing people to do this! It's some crazy michigan law. I do mark downs in my store. We only sticker something when there is a chance that it will be moved from a spot where it has a price label ... like when it is clearanced and thrown in the black hole of the clearance aisle. Anyway isn't it expected anymore that you have to look a couple of centimeters away for a price?

I am watching a strange show on MTV. I don't know how much mtv you guys watch, but this show is freaking crazy. Three moms go on a dates with a guy and try to sell him on dating their daughters. Then in the end the guy picks a mom and dates the daughter. The guy is never worth the trouble of trying to date let alone "win" a date with. The mothers are always stark raving mad. It's the same thing with room raiders ... the person doing the "raiding" is never worth dating!

Gunna go work out later dudes

Those Michiganders are Crazy!

Dudes, I am in Michigan, visiting my sister nikki. Some how we managed to avoid all the crazies on the road and the pot-holes. Justin and I were at his grandmothers for a day and then we came here. It's been nice to sit around and not do much. We went to a Joann's in Rochester. It was a new one so everything was white and a lot of their fixtures were newer. I like my store better. We went to a best buy up there too and bought a bunch of dvd's. Well i only bought one, Super Troopers. Cause they are the superest. I brought the game boy so i have been playing a lot of that. Wario Land I is what I played a lot of today. Yesterday I was all about Tetris and Dr. Mario.

Tonight we are eating calzones and later i think i'll make more yummy south west style cheese dip. Tomorrow I think we'll be going out for lunch and dinner!!

I brought a bunch of at stuff too but eh ... feelin' lazy though. We brought our bikes up here but as of yet they haven't made it out of the car. We'll be coming back some time on saturday ... oh vacation you will be over too soon. Nikki's computer is nice. Not to say that i prefer it... don't get me wrong i love my shuttle baby it's so cute. I am rambling.

ready set go!

man there are a million things to do before I go on my one and only vacation this summer. I am going with justin to visit my sister for a couple of days and justin's grandma. I don't even really have time to write this so this is me ... signing off

Today has been a slow hard day. I tried to sleep in because I went out last night and was pretty sure I would have a pretty bad hang over. But I couldn't stay asleep that long. My teeth still hurt and there are some muscles over my lip that hurt and my tongue on one side hurts too. I have been taking ibuprofen or how ever it's spelled.

Nobody wants to hear about my messed up face. I bought some comic books two days ago. I don't read comic books very regularly. I read other everyone else's. Sometimes justin will have some out and i'll read those... bondage fairies and the like. He has some crazy stuff. So i bought the first two in a series that just started last spring. It's called The Grimoire. It started with a teenager running away from home and there's magic and intelligent racoons. Now I want to go out and get the other ones that are out.

I want to start my own comic but I am not that creative or funny so we'll see what happens.

iiiiiiiiii want caandy do do do, do do

I love candy. Everyone who reads this already knows I love candy. But it's worth stating because this love is not a healthy love. It is unrequited, it is obsessive, it is one of the pillars of my character. I am out of school, working out and trying to shake my candy habbit.

On the drive to the olentangy trail where Red Beard and I rode yesterday we heard a sound clip played on the Howard Stern show where some dude was saying that there is no such thing as addiction... repeated use of a harmful substance is the individuals' fault because he/she kept making the decision to do it. Well, I think I understand addiction. You do have a choice, but the decision has already been made and you can't argue with yourself. I am at the check out at the grocery and the devil on the left side says "mmm snickers that would rule oh man you are starting to drool see ... get the snickers," then the angel on the right side says, "Crystal, you already had four giant chewy sweet tarts today." The devil does a little dance and says, "Candy is so yummy your taste buds will tingle and your mood will most certainly be elevated. You are having a long day, you deserve it." The angel pouts and says, "you are trying so hard to cut sugar intake. Don't give in. Aw fuck it. I want candy." (my conscience is as dorky as i am)

what is everybody's favorite candy?

here's a picture of a painting i made ... on sketch paper ... on the fridge ... i rule ...

the first ... rent day

Have you ever seen a pirate ride a bike? It's kinda hard with the peg leg and the parrot from his shoulder kept getting spooked and flying away. Red Beard is turning into a land lubber here, land locked. I have like, totally, nothing to like say.

I worked a lot this weekend and slept a lot. I am starting to get over being sick but one side of my throat still hurts and something strange is hurting deep in my gums over my front tooth.

Has everyone heard the story about how I chipped my front two teeth? It's so lame. I don't remember how old I was. It was sometime right before the fourth of july and Elizabeth and I were spraying eachother with the garden hose in the driveway. Plastic hose ... it hit my teeth and they shattered. They were like two little triangles. The goo that's supposed to stay in the middle of the tooth was sticking out and the exposed little nerves hurt like a bitch. I tried to eat like that! Mom and dad got me to an emergency dentist pretty quick and sealed it off but I looked horrible for a couple weeks before I could get better caps. Root canals hurt.